2012 in review part one?

2012 has been challenging.

From day one till now. Dugaan itu satu nikmat juga bukan? Alhamdulillah Im still standing strong...InsyaAllah. I think my iman is still strong now.

I do have doubts at myself sometimes. But insyAllah Ill get through all this like what Ive been through for the past one year.

Wow. It went by really quickly didnt it?

My 2012 have a been a little blurry. Im trying to recall lots of things that I think Ive forgotten. Not sure I did it on purpose or it just happened?

First half of the year was my happiest moment. The bestfriends birthday. Called to the bar. Best-roomate got married. Abang got married. Went to Singapore to see Shinhwa. Was 'this' close to Jason Mraz. You know that 'dream' board that they say. Last year I only had Eric on my board. And couple of things like amazing quotes from 'I wrote this for you'  But by end of the year when I achieved those things I had on my dream/vision board I realized, things do come true when you really reach out for it. 

Well, then I grew 'older and wiser' perhaps? I decided to take away the board and the study table. 

2012 was also the toughest moments of my life. I was really depressed and stressed out with work that I feel close to just go away and live alone. No, comitting suicide was never  a choice! Ive never looked that way. but that moment in my life was what it seems like went wrong for me. I looked at everything negatively. I was only left with one. turn everything to HIM. And this was the time for me to look at my self. look at things positively. taking things for a reason. 

Then came July. 

okay. need to get back to work. will continue this later.