keeping silent
There are times when I just feel like telling the whole world how I feel and how I've been. But I have this fear of people judging and not understanding the situation I am in right now.
It somehow amazes me how one could tell the story of their life publicly on facebook status or sorts.
Likewise I think I am doing the same thing right here right now ...... in this blog.
I have been keeping silent for my whole life. They always say mengalah. But for the past few days I couldnt help breaking into tears just thinking about each and every single thing. It just keep popping up in my mind and I keep judging it.
From the littlest thing to ... everything.
Mengalah.
My only question is sampai bila?
I am so tired of keep being put aside and forgotten. Promises. promises. promises.
But when it comes to a huge problem they come to me first 'kakak please settle this for me.' How about me? Have you ever thought how I felt? How would I feel when you make the decision?
I am so deeply hurt just thinking about it. Put the blame on me. Yes. please put ALL the blame on me.
It somehow amazes me how one could tell the story of their life publicly on facebook status or sorts.
Likewise I think I am doing the same thing right here right now ...... in this blog.
I have been keeping silent for my whole life. They always say mengalah. But for the past few days I couldnt help breaking into tears just thinking about each and every single thing. It just keep popping up in my mind and I keep judging it.
From the littlest thing to ... everything.
Mengalah.
My only question is sampai bila?
I am so tired of keep being put aside and forgotten. Promises. promises. promises.
But when it comes to a huge problem they come to me first 'kakak please settle this for me.' How about me? Have you ever thought how I felt? How would I feel when you make the decision?
I am so deeply hurt just thinking about it. Put the blame on me. Yes. please put ALL the blame on me.
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