that feeling

I just had the 'oh shit I'm old' moment when I went to collect my house keys yesterday.

Its hard to believe that I own a house now.

My own house. 

Alhamdulillah. Yes I wont lie that I have been struggling for the past couple of years. That couple of years of 'no you cant buy this' 'no you cant buy that'. Those moments when you have that urge of purchasing some really cute journals or time planners online but it costs like RM100++ and I'll be doing some mental calculation. And thought hey, maybe next time? 

Or that part when you want to buy a cup of coffee of RM14/15 and had the second though thinking if this is my 'one and only' cup  a month moment.

So yes, that patience really paid off.

When I took my house keys and went to checked it out, and walked into my own house its surreal. Yes it may be small but hey........ this is my own house. My property. It screams my name on it. 

No its not about boasting or anything, but its just that feeling of. No shit, here comes another commitment checked on the right column of my brain. So yay, lets organize a party.

I am grateful for everything. Alhamdulillah.